more than a month into sch, i'll be having a test on sat and it's my weakest subject :S apart from that, i'm pretty used to life on campus already, it seems that the older i get the faster i adapt to new situations. maybe it's because i'm no longer stupid enough to believe that if i hold out indefinitely things will get back to normal, either that or i'm getting old, not enough energy to be the petulant being i once was. or, i could have found an excellent vent in the form of my weekly outings.
i think i must be worrying some people with my weekly excursions to zouk; some people have expressed their concerns over my health etc. i think i shall have to break the promise i made last week, i might be going again this week. and i did mean what i said the previous time, there's something cathartic about those outings. i find myself strangely devoid of resentment towards my present situation when i wake up in the morning afternoon. there's even a certain clarity in my thoughts during lessons in the day.
i guess all i really need is a method to get high, i used to get high on oxygen alone when we were in 408 but now i suppose i need something else that costs quite a fair bit more. is this how people feel when they hit their mid-life crisis? all their working life, they suppress this recklessness and impetuousness because they must be sensible and practical, then when it strikes they go off to get a tattoo and a car their meagre salaries can't afford. i don't want to end up like them so i'm getting my kick in smaller, regular doses.
people keep asking me what field of engineering am i going into in the future as if i'm an engineer already, what do i say when they ask me what i want out of life? i want to have fun and that's about all really. if i ever graduate with honours, i think i can be an extremely successful hypnotherapist or a translator if i am unwilling to go into engineering, which is highly likely. i would have had plenty of practice convincing myself that this degree is worth it and 4 years of listening to chinese professors drone on about "anal" atoms on a [101] "plan" will make anyone a brilliant translator.
our day will come.
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i think a tattoo is less harmful than drinking EVERY WEEK kthnxbai !
i was thinking of a tattoo. i have stopped drinking every week! i am proud to say that i did not club every week till mid term :D
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